I wish I hadn't lied

It's been eating me up inside for years. I told my best friend that I was happy for her when she got the job I wanted. The truth is, I was so jealous. I pretended to be excited, but I went home and cried. It wasn't fair. I was better qualified, I worked harder. I should have gotten it. I should have been a better friend and just told her how I felt. But I didn't. And now it's too late. She moved away and we drifted apart. I feel so guilty for being a bad friend and for being so dishonest. I hope she's doing okay. I really do.