She deserved better

I messed up, big time. I was with Sarah for three years, and honestly, they were the best years of my life. She was always there for me, even when I was a complete mess. I was struggling with my job, feeling like a failure, and she just... held me up. She believed in me even when I didn't believe in myself.

But I got scared. Scared of how good things were, I guess. Scared of commitment. So, like an idiot, I started pulling away. I started finding excuses to not spend time with her, I started picking fights over stupid things, just to create distance. And then, the worst part, I started talking to someone else. It wasn't even a real 'thing,' just stupid flirting, but it was enough. It was enough to break Sarah's heart when she found out.

She left, and I deserved it. I've tried to move on, but I can't. Every time I see a happy couple, every time I hear 'our' song, it all just comes crashing back. She deserved someone who could appreciate her, someone who wasn't a coward. I hope she's found that person. I really do. I'll never forgive myself for hurting her like that.