I Spent My Inheritance

Dear Sacred Posts,

I feel sick writing this, but I need to tell someone. My grandma died last year and left me a good chunk of money. Not millions, but enough to pay off my student loans and maybe even put a down payment on a small condo. She always wanted me to be secure.

Well, I didn't do any of that. Instead, I went a little crazy. I bought a fancy car I couldn't really afford, went on a couple of expensive trips, and basically just blew the rest on stupid stuff – clothes, gadgets, dinners out. I told myself I deserved it, that I'd been working so hard and needed to treat myself.

Now the money's gone. All of it. My student loans are still there, the car payments are crushing me, and I'm living paycheck to paycheck again. I feel like I betrayed my grandma's trust. She would be so disappointed. I keep having nightmares about her shaking her head at me. I haven't told anyone, not even my best friend. I'm so ashamed. What was I thinking? How could I be so irresponsible? I don't know what to do. I just needed to get it off my chest, even if it's just to strangers online.

Sincerely,
Anna